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a few days how can it influence a person so much I'll always care for everyone that stares into my eyes and so coincidentally you've become one of them somehow you've revived the same feelings that I've buried long ago the feelings that were once dead and like I've already said I'll always care even with those dark glare that disturbs your shine every word every lines that you've said are left unforgotten they are forever caught and etched in my heart and no I ain't that smart by that I mean that level where you bevel and emboss a picture without anything i will forever care for you and love you till you want it i will be your  pinch-of-hope till you recover bit by bit -yakaa: jujaa

i act but that's all i got left to keep myself same from my own emotions, i don't want no help from anybody but i'm getting them from everybody but i feel no shame cause i haven't asked them from anyone and now i ain't got no home and my hearts turned into stone and after years of hone- ning my skills I've finally succeed in letting my head taking over my heart cause once broken and hurt heart only gives bad advice so we should only listen to it in trifle amount I've learned to ignore the sounds the voices in my head that speaks of hatred I've learned to lie so high that even the sky despises me, i like to hide the monster in me the one no one must ever see -yakaa: jujaa   

language: newari khowya khwae mafta ji aesa sunka chowna khoi haeka nuga:ya khapa chaekaa pulangu di lumanka ji aa: simha manuchhe sunka chowna chowna jilaa ashwaknowta laa khani gulichaka ji ba:ni ba:ni jhyala sa timilata swoya khowya chownu gulichaka ba:ni ba:ni ka:sisa timila ya  ta swoya chhanta fowna chownu? chhanta jigu khwa he swae mamadu  wo kha chha jit madhasa ji syu wo kh ji syu sa mashyu thae yar mafu jigu nuga:le ghaa majuni saa bulu bulu gha juya wai the chhow mayju maguta ju chhanta yaeka chowni chhangu nuga:ya kha syu siyachowsa masyu the yana chownu aesa chhanta ji maya:sa ji chhanta he yaeka chowni ji jigu jiutali ya timilaeta showya kha lhaima mayju ji chhangu jiuytali timila chhe ju sa jyu dhaka ji fowna chowna ji na chhangu nuga:li timilaya thae dayki phaema dhay ji phowna chowna -yakaa: jujaa

that face that nut case oh i remember that past the one that had lasted for so long but now i have blasted out from that prison don't want to remember when i was cast out from my own home and treated as an outcast a  misfit, a maniac a schizophrenic but I've grown now i now know how not to bow before these issues, but how not to fight them but to gain their powers and restrain the beast within until i can release that beast into something peace- full something least harmfull something that suits me -yakaa: jujaa

sorry for saying this but the way you are cut- off from the world the way you live inside your small hut and the walls that you've built will one day break down and one day your frown will turn upside down and somebody someday will make you wear a crown and tear down the shield that you keep around yourself so you just gotta let go but be in control though for i will be watching you atleast for the time that i get to spend with you i know that it's short but i will watch your chin rise up in pride cause one day you'll ride a happy horse and for the time being i'll follow everything you do and i will grow up with you too -yakaa: jujaa

maybe i was born for this caring for others shit and bit by bit tearing me apart taking everything by heart and here i lay flat thinking i can outsmart life in the game that its playing with me reminiscing pain it has given me and turning them into words and writing what the world thinks of me at the same time keeping track of the words and turning them into rhymes and i know that this peace of text isn't about the world cause the mind cant rest and i know that someones going through crap and writing about it just like i did sipping cold coffee persons mid softening and she writes about her experiences and her pain and knowing she'll never be the same again -yakaa: jujaa