Skip to main content

stoic front

for so long i've trained
for so long i've strained
my mind but finally the results are in
i'm better than i've ever been
no more bad emotions inside me
besides those i cant see
no i wont express them in my face
 and that just rests my case
of pain i've felt
all those words i've never said
will pour out through my pen
yea i know that there ain't much to gain
by doing this but
i'm doing this just
because i want to
just because i have to
it's my own resolve
that might just solve
many problems that i have
yes i'm mad
for even trying to put up a stoic front
when my mind's a war zone
no place to call home
for my mind, barely there, mostly gone
cause the more i put the stoic front
the more insane i'll become
but i have to do that for those i love
i have to be that peaceful dove
that everyone wants me to be
and by everyone i mean
the voices inside me...
(its been a long time since the voices inside me (criss and seul) began to nag me to put up the stoic font so that i can have more time to save me from my own emotions and to save me from ROY itself. so i finally decided that i'd take up on their suggestion.)
-yakaa: jujaa:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

few days

after a long time you were the first one to touch my soul and spawn those feelings that had long gone and left me without a place to call home but you came in my lame  life, at the same  time i was about to loose in this game called life and die believe me I've tried many times but I've barely survived and i dived in your love you became my all above to me, my world revolved around you but now you were gone again and i would never be the same and i know that you'd return in a short term of days but i couldn't just say that I'd be fine without you cause our memories haunt me and that's all i could be and aimless life form #promise -yakaa: jujaa
Post a Comment
Read more

tired

i'm weak, weaker than the most but the one thing i have is hope and the will to fight for what's right but now i need rest from my self, i'm my own pest the battle inside my head is growing in the night it's sowing seeds of chaos which in the end goes to become a demon itself i'm loosing time, i have no help in this war against myself and yet i can't even yelp in pain cause no one knows what's going inside my head the medications that's said to help me has failed and my sanity's ship has long sailed and is going beyond my sight yet i fight but for now, i need rest good bye world for now but i vow to return again but for now let me submit to the pain of helplessness -yakaa: jujaa (i vomitted just before. the stress was too much for me. i will be back stronger but i need to rest...)
Post a Comment
Read more

farewell

thanks for coming into my life which was full of lies you made the time fly but the time has come to say good bye u made me touch the sky and your sent made me high so as i write with teary eyes i'll never despise you even if you become a shadow of your self, i'd find your hideout and remember your former self i'd gladly help you even if you are nothing of what you are now and i don't know how will i care for you i will love you too even if you loose everything that makes you you cause that's how i am i remember everything that you said and now you are already a voice inside my head and maybe i was too late to save you from yourself but somehow you developed an alter ego and now its time to let go and move on - yakaa: jujaa
Post a Comment
Read more