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a hole in my heart

As soon as the darkness sets in
I remember those places i’ve been
Through, those tough times i’ve seen,
Those times when i was keen
To know what awaits me
At the other side of the tunnel
Keen to know what the other side of the funnel
Holds for me
Oh! So keen to see
What awaits for me in the end
Those were the times well spent
But now i’m dead inside
And my face doesn’t hide
Any emotions, well not that i feel
Much off anything to begin with, i’ve steeled
My heart to feel anything
And despite being a human being
Those emotions have left my heart
Well that heart which has been hurt
As much time as hurt can be covered with dirt;
Dirt as long as the hearts girth
But i need to feel
In order to exist and be free
In this realistic world
So i flirt
With my emotions every now and then
Hence i come off as insane
But all i’m trying to do
Is to get through
A day with this hole in my heart
And i know that i blurt
Random words outa my mouth
Just to let out
My insane feelings that my numb heart
Feels every once in a while...
#batman (well to be honest both of us are in the same boat. Our heart has been numbed by this world and while i seek peace in my words she seeks peace in the shades of black and grey of the pencil. Maybe this is why we get along so much. Both of us are dead on the inside and we both feel only a certain spectrum of emotions which are far too less to be considered as normal.)
-yakaa: jujaan

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