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waiting

how long has it been
since i had last seen
those three words on screen
it now seems like a dream
to me and see those words
is it a curse
just to get hurt
so i just blurt
those words
but even the voices in my head dissolves
those words that'll make me blush
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna be high
plese s say it once even though it's a lie
and make me feel alive
even if it's for a split second
hell! I'm even ready to fund
you as broke aas i may be
why can't anyone see
the desperate soul in me
bur screw it, let it be
i can live without hearing them
and die too....

(not my story but this is one for those peeps who haven't heard the words "i love you" in a long time.... well there is someone secretly crushing overy you my mate. just learned this thing recently. don't give up hope peeps... you will find the love of your life in unexpected ways. no that i have found the love of my life but hey.. there is my favorite quote "when you've been in darkness for as long as you have... you see even the slightest ray of hope so.. meh!!!)

-yakaa: jujaan

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