extra dark coffee

it's me that we're talking about it's not like you're gonna wanna shout my name and admit that you like my shit but admit this that you won't ever see anyone like me so i'm thankfu for you having patience to soar up in the sky and look up and find me there, you're stuck i know that you're stuck like a damn duck in the middle of a shooting range you have your strange problems that you hide them to my sight cause you dont want me hurt but i heal quickly and i'll always be me but i will change for better we will have a family not like we have now not a dysfunctional one but somehow normal you and me together -yakaa: jujaa #promise

i smoke, take a joint and do ramdom stuffs and point towarda random objects and talk about random subjects cause i have been an addict before i have hallucinated for i took one too many drink of coffee and took one too many bite of the toffee but now i'm searching for another hit these coffee and joint don't effect ma a little bit and i admit that i've left smoking weed cause it breeded those shitty thoughts in my head so i smoke another ciggeratte but i'm trying to leave that too to be hit by reality, boo-hoo i'm scared of life and yet i fight cause the biggest hit is reality and i'm trying to observe that, can't you see that shit happens but it's no reason to quit so shut up your mother-fucking mouth and gear up cause things will go south cause it's the reality -yakaa: jujaa

all those days that i've felt all those days that i've spent doing nothing are creeping up on me and i can't even disagree what my other half tells it tells me to help myself and do something but what about the voices i keep hearing bearing me down with the weight of this world when my vision swirls and twirls as i see a girl but no! it ain't no girl it's just an image of war where there's no gain for either of the teams but the steams from the war is steaming my heart the love bird inside me has died because of the strain inside my brain thats where all those conflicts has taken place -yakaa: jujaa (some days like this makes me question my sanity)