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Why do i put up this fight? Why do i still write? Man i don’t know I’m just trying to grow Up and learn how to fight Just to see the light I’m just trying to be myself Yes i do need some help I try to be all that the world needs But is there anyone who heeds My call of distress As i lay there stressed Like seriously, What is normality For all i can remember i’ve been sad Despite the good fortunes that i’ve had But now,  i don’t even have the energy To do anything, the world i see Ain’t half bad So i should be glad But despite knowing everything I can’t adapt, i’m just a human being Dead inside Opened wide By the battle between what i know And what i feel yet i continue to grow Inside the conflict... -yakaa: jujaan

I can’t face this world anymore, My mind is gored My the emotions to such An extent, not much By yours in comparision but To me it’s too much, it just want’s to shut Down and never start up Tired of doing what it does, that is mope Around and shed those invisible Tears and it want’s to end any physical Form and call it quits And flip the switch Off. Tired of facing reality Tired if trying to see The world through others eye, This mind just want’s to bid bye But it want’s to see the light So it’s hanging on with all it’s might Trying to give up but not wanting to do it. I know that it smells a lot like hypocrisy But it is what it is All this mind want’s is a moment of bliss A moment to gather all it’s energy And take a refreshing sleep So it can fight again tomorrow... #the_25th_hour -yakaa: jujaan