extra dark coffee

I'm done trying to understand I'm done trying to pretend that I have a hand in what is going around in this head so I pretend instead so that I can pretend not to hate this shit hole we are all stuck, detest is still what I feel, I'm at best able to comprehend what is going around, still a gorefest well that is what it is, but well all Imma do is compress and try to guess what is blue, grey or red there is nothing pure black nor white it all depends on what you see, what you feel, what you want to light up or light up in fire, well gain some insight before you say stupid shits, or stand together to fight I know, not everyone thinks the same, but still give have some foresight think in some silence like that kid in a room with no light think for a moment and have some thoughts, doesn't matter if it ain't so bright and ya'll must think I'm pissed right? well correct but not as much just disappointed in humanity, that's all but do I still have some hope? no