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i"ve been chasing it for sometime like a sniper waiting  to snipe slowly and patiently and just as i about to catch him he runs away far from my grasp and then i laugh like a madman flaring my hand up in the air cause i know what happens next i loose the person i right in my index finger like the person i count the first and she is leading me like a bright beacon like i'm her lost son and all i can do is reach out for her reach out for her red curls she is looking at me with those eyes the ones that despises my sad face but all i can do is chase her cause i'm forever falling behind... #batman (m always chasing her shadow) -yakaa: jujaan (though she is leading me to the bright path... i'm afraid that i'll be left behind... just like #pinch_of_hope left me behind... just like #promise left me behind. i'll always be afraid of that,) blog exclusive _eklo yatri

caged enraged a staged performance with a damaged head somewhere fed up with my own existence i am lost hence i don't know where i came from hell i don't even have a place to call a home to begin with all i feel is like shit like a bug squashed by my own feet my fleet of the army of happiness disappearing slowly i saw it long ago, flowing down along with my tears but i have not smeared every bit if tears all across till not a drop remained anger restrained by those voices that haunt me a person only i can see that exists somewhere in my own head yea i feel like i am that person the one who has no home lost somewhere... stuck somewhere... in a limbo between reality and illusion... #the_25th_hour -yakaa; jujaan (i've lost my home... not the physical one but a mental one. i don't find my peace of mind anywhere... not even with those who were my home a few weeks past. a heavy heart is all i have... an angry mind is all i have. ) a blog exclusi

no one to open up my heart so I'm like a child lost in a super mart with nowhere to go and no one to open up to people say "go and screw yourself up. you ain't the only one with problems you ain't the only one with difficult sums shoved up your ass" i do know that everyone has their own shits to deal with some of whom is greater than what fits in their head but i'm just a human being just content with seeing everyone i love happy but i need someone to tell how crappy i feel when people ignore me i'm just steeling my feelings day's have gone by like this feeling like shit feeling that i'm not enough so I'm here cough -ing my insides by smoking too much just cause i don't wanna make any fuss with anyone i just wanna express my feelings after all i'm just a human being so here i'm writing out what i feel but that deal i made with the devil is paying up still i wanna stop feeling like no one man i wanna feel someone to someone but all