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so i've blocked you from medias just to save my own ass from getting torn apart I've got to make a new start so i sent some messages and set up a hates stage  but only because i couldn't move on only because you aren't gone from my heart i have to start a new i can't be stuck on you forever, I've got to i hope that you can forgive me if i said anything mean but i had to do that know that i lied on a cold mat and cried a lot the night i blocked that name i know things haven't been same between you and me for a long time but i just can't whine on forever about our separation that relation we had was long gone but i just still can't move on but I'm done with being same weak ass i want to crack jokes with the person i love i want those cupids dove to strike my heart again so i did it for my own selfish sake but you will always be there in my heart somewhere... #promise -yakaa: jujaan

a ton of stuffs on my head every time i lie awake every word i said every smile i make it's all fake and till this date i've been bearing all that hate just for the sake of showing that I'm okey but hey! I'm just a human being, i fall from grace and i wan't to disappear without a trace every now and then but then again i worry about the people i love i don't want them to get disturbed i am different so what? i am the child that got lost in a mart i have got a heart i am smart to some extent atleast i am the one who got ditched the wallflower, the last picked the one who needed his clothes fixed till late in the teens but it seems that i've grown now and i've somehow been able to handle the stress handle the dark caress of work, family, friends and emotions yea those emotions that hones and strikes me on my weakest days but like i've said i've learned to fake a smile for the sake of those i love, my world but o...