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you say that you love me but all i see is the affection in the darkest of complection you say that i am the favorite  but why do i feel the furthest away? but as i sway to the wind of my emotions that question remains, holding a gun to my head and those emotions, hiding their face wearing a mask waiting for me to come in range as i walk and follow my strange set of rules that drools over on my own self made cage that i've laid over my head well everything's the same but as i struggle to remain sane that question bugs me till i rest the question being "if i really am the favorite, why do i feel the furthest away???" #promise #khyampwa #dhowmpowa #iku_iku -yakaa: jujaa  

like a light amidst like a kiss in the abyss it shines and unwinds me when i look at the night sky  i remember all my lies and all i see is darkness and my lies hisses at me but i often wonder and plunder my emotions and think what would we see when we look at the sky together, would we despise it; the darkness, or see that faint light if the star and kiss each others scars can we look at them together? will we look at them together in the future? i wanna know what the stars hold for us and i know that we might even bite the dust and be separated by that time and i have been separated with many people; those who gave me any  and all hope but one thing i know that all the bravery i show are because of them who are lost those who gave me false promise o staying together so i said" later we will one day be commected through the stars" yea that's what i said to then and i will say the same to you #promise #pinch_of_hope #chi_chu #iku_ik...

haat ta chuteko chhaina saath pani tuteko hoina saayad dherai samaya nabheteko le hola futdai chha mero manma yaad ka gola coffee ko tito swaad jastai ho tyestai chha timro yaad rakshi le bhanda badhi dinchha maat bhaat pani ruchdaina malai dinchha malai tadhpai tara tyehi tadhpaima chha aananda timro tyo manda-manda muskaan ko jhajhalki auchha ani hamro saath ko yaad le satauchha kadha coffee pani guliyo lagna thalyo hare shiva! maile yo kun baato apnaiyo?  pidama pani khushi dekhchhu ma ra tyehi bhavlai paanama lekhchhu ma ho pirdaayak chha tara tyehima aananda chha tito coffee khayepachhi aune guliyo jastai timro yaad chha tyestai tyestai #promise #rikson_daiko_coffee -yakaa: jujaa:

i've been down before but now i'm being ggored down by my emotions i now need simplification of them cause they are being too complex but i somehow understand them those games that my emotions are playing, relaying my past memories, slaying all the hope inside me making me an oddity like i wasn't odd enough now i feel like there's no hope even as i spit out there dope rhymes, i feel so worthless there i rest my case cause i haven't been able to do anything, not even make a time table to do my chores and life's been a freaking whore fucking me over and over again till i no longer remain sane and not even the pills are doing their work hell i can't even feel bore- dom, all i feek is down like a gray hound who's lost his speed -yakaa: jujaa:

yes i can't cry so why do my memories want me to do exactly that so much so that i break down like a fucking clown with a sad face  and let's just rest this case of emotional pain here and begin another one of physical pain and then some it attacks me from outa nowhere and as i stare into the abyss i remember that painful kiss from the pain itself now we're talking about double attack  now just hault for a second and make it a triple one every good feeling gone and i'm left with nowhere to go no pain-killer slows  the pain down but a little piece of sanity found in those small words #promise (back pain) -yakaa: jujaa: