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a thought creeps all the happiness sweeps away as I lay below the dim light of the lamp my sight has become damp from the tears that I’ve been holding, I swear to become strong tomorrow and row the boat of life I’ll strive to become better I’ll take the shelter from sadness, from the madness within but I promise to live on I won’t die even if my demon spawns and grows bit by bit I won’t do shit- ty things that brings my demons to rise and I will fight till my last ounce of energy so Mr. Grim reaper Not Today (when the voices begin to rise…) -yakaa: jujaa

of course I get happy even when she cracks crappy jokes, when she brings out her smile I smile even though we are miles apart, well not literally but those bitterly feelings makes me feel like we really are how I wish I had a bike or a car so that I could drive anytime to see your smile and I make fun of myself trying to look like an idiot in need of help yelping like a dog whose been hog- tied to a pole and even if I am sore In my mind your kind smile saves me from myself #batman(her smile… makes me wanna smile myself and I do even though most of it is fake…she makes me wanna be strong…stronger than I am right now. One of the most influential person in my life) -yakaa: jujaa

too many words in my head so I try to put it here instead of speaking them out those words are all about me myself and her the one who stirs up my feelings and keeps them under control the on whose role is very important the one who is a god sent gift to me the who resides within my memories the one who sees everything that I do and she controls m sometimes too this one’s for her; my friend the one who bends her own rule and this much is true that I love her and I am thankful too #criss_walker (well I love her. She I the one who calms me down most of the time besides #batman) -yakaa: jujaa