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As soon as the darkness sets in I remember those places i’ve been Through, those tough times i’ve seen, Those times when i was keen To know what awaits me At the other side of the tunnel Keen to know what the other side of the funnel Holds for me Oh! So keen to see What awaits for me in the end Those were the times well spent But now i’m dead inside And my face doesn’t hide Any emotions, well not that i feel Much off anything to begin with, i’ve steeled My heart to feel anything And despite being a human being Those emotions have left my heart Well that heart which has been hurt As much time as hurt can be covered with dirt; Dirt as long as the hearts girth But i need to feel In order to exist and be free In this realistic world So i flirt With my emotions every now and then Hence i come off as insane But all i’m trying to do Is to get through A day with this hole in my heart And i know that i blurt Random words outa my mouth Just to let out My insane f...

I wanna be free And go on a spree Of doing the random things i like I wanna go on a hike With no destination And no tension.  The shackles that’s on my feet, The extreme heat Created by my own mind, I want to find Somewhere to escape from them But i know things won’t be the same So i want to make peace my dame And be glad that i have it I believe that peace Will free Me from my shackles and handcuffs I wanna smoke a few puffs Of rezilla and be high I wanna fly To the sky everyday Without any drug “what say??? Wanna loose yourself and be mine??? Wanna shine without any wine???” I want to be able to say that With a magical hat To others but i need to be free Myself and go on a winning spree I wanna find the light And be the reason someone else fights For light, i wanna be a pinch of hope For somebody else... -yakaa: jujaan

Well not a suprise that i’m dumb And i am to some extent numb to my own thoughts Numb to all those frauds That is happening around the world Numb to all those twirls And turns and this and that Numb to all those fat Lies amd fake promises Nothing to give, nothing to take And i’ve come to realize That the reality that i despise Is the one where i live in I have been To both dark and bright places And seen both pretty and ugly faces So i am an idiot Like an apricot Dog that sees itself in grayscale What sees is its reality only it can tell So i need to rise up from my idiocy And i needd to see The world for what it is Rather than living in my own world Which is very small I need to make a goal And fight my faults I need to fight my idiocy And dive into this deep sea Called reality... -yakaa: jujaan

I woke up The time had stopped But suddenly it started flowing The sun started glowing More than usual And the brutal Reality hit me hard I am dumb not smart I am lost I am a ghost Of my past self But just thinking won’t help Me,  i gotta move And swing to the groove That i am put in Even if it means dealing With the shits That is beat Into my head Cause that’s reality I am just a puppet of my thoughts I am just creating a fuss By just going with them I need to see The harsh reality I need to know That there is place for me to grow A million possibilities Both positive and negetive A million breeze A million outcomes to concieve And i need to realize that... -yakaa: jujaan