extra dark coffee

one side says up, another says down do i look like a fucking depressed clown to you when i have these episodes?? when two close sides inside fight within my so called brain trying to take control over my body while i look dazed like a fat glazed bun, yea i'm a nut case so what? i've read every article available on my MPD and i had that shit since before Power Rangers SPD began airing so yea it's been a long time but unlike wine it's only grown worse like an aged racing horse and while i try to guard my important ones from that side, working as hard as i can to keep these personalities  in check they leak out making me look fake but oh! my hard work is paying i can't stop but i keep delaying their appearances in my body till one day i explode till one day i cant contain them no more but till that day I'll work hard without having to say to keep my other sides beside.... -yakaa: jujaa: (i am working hard #promise..just not on the fiel...

yo jindagi kasto chha sochnai sakina maile tara yo jindagi bachna kehi ta garnu parchha tara ma yestai pare yettika barsama k nai gare ra? inaarko fed baata gahiraima jhare ko manchhe hu ma, eklopanko saagar tare ko manchhe hu ma tara shadba khelaunu bahek kehi garna sakina kehi garna sakdina din ra raat ek jasta bhayeka chhan yo bojh haru jun mero kaadhma raheka chhan yo awarapan ko bojh haru hatai kehi garnu chha tara bigat ka dinle satai rakheka chhan yi bigat ka din haru lai angali naya baato sangali agadhi badhnu chha yo awara manchhe lai kakshya diyeko chha mero kasam chha euta aru kasailai yo baato hidera haar manne dine chhuina ma #promise #pinch_of_hope -yakaa: jujaa: (i am an aimless man. the only dream i have is to fulfill the dream of someone else.  those two that i have hashtag-ed gave me inspiration. those two gave me a new reason to fight and although one is nothing but just a damaged memory another one is still here with me....the one wh...

taking the sips off the cup he sits there alone in the crowd as mind boggling thoughts pop up in his little head he could be anywhere instead he choose this place to think and sip deep he sinks as time slips by him its strange how somethings so little can mean a lot the bitter sweet taste of the coffee now drowning in the sea of thoughts he rests his vessel and walks off -yakaa: jujaa: (today. after seeing off alu and dhompwa i went again to rikson bro's coffee shop and drank my extra dark coffee and thought some more. i gave #promise a gift on friday and she wore it in one of the important days of her current time. it just made my heart melt. i know it doesn't mean much but it meant a lot to me. as i drank the bitter coffee, those thoughts of #promise made my heart flutter with joy. then the thoughts of being separated from her came to my mind. it hurt way more than i thought it would hurt. 3thing's that i would do all i can for: coffee,karela and the t...

it's funny how some words can heal you while some can steal your steel strong resolve and make you feel shitty, some can make you do supernatural boom blast, so choose your words carefully you don't wanna be a bully by using harsh words but there's something even more painfull than words: thats silence a sign of growing violence in ones mind a sign that the light that once used to shine brightly has come to an end, its a sign that that kind mind's disturbed so word warriors be alert and listen to the click of the clock use your words to heal not to steal someone's happimess and send them to darkness use your words to seal away someones violent silence -yakaa: jujaa: (i've had some great days and some bad days in the past few weeks and i realized that  i needed a word warriors words to calm me down but i ended up helping myself. my other side that is. i finally gave something to my loved one. and i had a feud with someone i valued the...