anxiety

so here i am laughing with my friends
about some new trends
that caught our eyes
not that we despise
such things and suddenly
my abnormality
strikes mu heart
like a dart
piercing through silence
it makes me violent
my heart beat goes up
and the time stops
and suddenly i hear voices
that gives me a hell lot of choices
number one being run up and hide
but i try with all my might
to ignore it and be normal
not to be formal
but still act like I've been acting before
i try to restore
my last seen attitude
but my aptitude
says it's too much
and i loose to my voice in such
a way that i have to run away
-yakaa: jujaa