loneliness

it was defeaning when this silence began
i used to go out whenever i can
and build castles made up of sand
but now everything seems so bland
no new taste, no new flavour
so i did myself a favor
i shut myself indoor
and began crying on the floor
cause this black emotion had just set in
and since then it's all i've been feeling
but i've gone to many places, i've been
in a lot of situations and seen
a lot of things but i can't get rid
of this thing thats sown its seed
deep in my heart which makes
you feel alone, the one that takes
all your feeling and makes you numb
that takes away all your senses and makes you dumb
this feeling grew, to the point that i began to mumble
shits and began to fumble
my feelings afraid to let them go
it made me feel so
alone, even in crowd, even among familiar faces
and that's just one of the cases
yet i can't escape this feeling of loneliness
-yakaa: jujaa
(written by the demand of a friend)