working hard

one side says up, another says down
do i look like a fucking depressed clown
to you when i have these episodes??
when two close
sides inside fight within my so
called brain trying to take control
over my body while i look dazed
like a fat glazed
bun, yea i'm a nut case
so what? i've read
every article available on my MPD
and i had that shit since before Power Rangers SPD
began airing so yea it's been a long time
but unlike wine
it's only grown worse
like an aged racing horse
and while i try to guard
my important ones from that side, working as hard
as i can to keep these personalities  in check
they leak out making me look fake
but oh! my hard work is paying
i can't stop but i keep delaying
their appearances in my body
till one day i explode
till one day i cant contain them no more
but till that day
I'll work hard without having to say
to keep my other sides
beside....
-yakaa: jujaa:
(i am working hard #promise..just not on the field that u think i'm working on. ell i'm working hard on that too but just not as hard as i am working on this feild :D )