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moonlight


So I brought it out
and told them all about
myself through mime
as I fought hard to kill the time
and between the gaps my pain surged
and tested my hard forged
will made up of some kind of steel
as I steeled
my heart from all the emotions,
well I mean dark ones
and in those moments of pain
I saw her face
whenever I looked up at the sky
my life
flashed before my very eyes
yes! Even those moments I despised
yet somehow felt serene
in a ring
full of happiness and pain
I tried my best to remain sane
then I asked myself
what am I without her help?
here by her I mean people
who made my life a fairy fable
each and every one of them
the questions; am I really sane?
do I really matter to them?
or am I just a nut case they pity on?’
no! where I live in this city ain’t my home
and I’ve been searching for a place
a place where I belong
maybe I’ll find it some-
where, maybe it’s with her
maybe…
and there are a hell lota maybe’s
a lot more than the number of babies
born each year
and so I stare
into the moonlight during these
few moments of serenity
#promise
-yakaa: jujaa

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Beep-ish said…
and there I was thinking for a minute thinking...."where have I read this?" lol
#peaceout

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