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somewhere in the back of her mind

I thought i had vanished,
My existance famished
From not getting enough attention,
Gone! My mind that’s lost its home
But she came to my rescue
She gave me a reason to do
My best and gave me a reason to strive for
And gave me a reason to make a goal
And run towards it
And I AM doing it bit by bit
And i came to know that atleast she
Has me
In the back of my mind
Cause she acted kind
To me, she included me in her dreams
The ones that screams
For help
And me myself
Is her saviour
The one that savors
The life by eating her pains
The ones that stains
The apron by killing her distress
I am the one who stresses
Thinking of her strain
She has me riding this train
Of success with her
And i am thankful to her for
Including me in her mind
The only place where i find
Peace...
#batman (c is the only person who includes me in her dreams... and among those few who thinks of me as something else than a burden)
-yakaa: jujaan

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