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somewhere...

caged
enraged
a staged
performance with a damaged head
somewhere fed up with my own existence
i am lost hence
i don't know where i came from
hell i don't even have a place to call a home
to begin with
all i feel is like shit
like a bug squashed by my own feet
my fleet
of the army of happiness disappearing slowly
i saw it long ago, flowing
down along with my tears
but i have not smeared
every bit if tears all across till not a drop remained
anger restrained
by those voices that haunt me
a person only i can see
that exists somewhere in my own head
yea i feel like i am that person
the one who has no home
lost somewhere...
stuck somewhere...
in a limbo between reality and illusion...
#the_25th_hour
-yakaa; jujaan
(i've lost my home...
not the physical one but a mental one. i don't find my peace of mind anywhere... not even with those who were my home a few weeks past. a heavy heart is all i have... an angry mind is all i have. )

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