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A maniac

that face
that nut case
oh i remember that past
the one that had lasted
for so long
but now i have blasted out from that prison
don't want to remember when i was cast
out from my own home
and treated as an outcast
a  misfit, a maniac
a schizophrenic
but I've grown now
i now know how
not to bow
before these issues, but how not to fight them
but to gain their powers and restrain
the beast within
until i can release
that beast into something peace-
full
something least
harmfull
something that suits me
-yakaa: jujaa


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