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i've lived long enough
not long but just
long enough to have faced
enough to care
about my past
the one that's not so vast
but that's enough to have taught me something
vast enough to have defined me as living being
it consists of pleasure and pain
consists of losses and gain
consists of days different and same
includes me being insane and sane
but now that i've reached this state
now that it's gotten this late
at night, near the midnights gate
the future frightens me
the new day that i'm afraid to see
but its not only the future
its the future of loosingthe home
loosing all the sight of the pain i've been through
loosing the things that makes me who i am
and living another day
the same way like u were just born yesterday
and forgetting the past
like being born just today...
-yakaa: jujaa

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