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favorite

you say that you love me
but all i see
is the affection
in the darkest of complection
you say that i am the favorite 
but why do i feel the furthest away?
but as i sway
to the wind of my emotions
that question remains, holding a gun
to my head
and those emotions, hiding their face
wearing a mask
waiting for me to come in range
as i walk and follow my strange
set of rules
that drools
over on my own self made cage
that i've laid
over my head
well everything's the same
but as i struggle to remain sane
that question bugs me till i rest
the question being
"if i really am the favorite, why
do i feel the furthest away???"
#promise
#khyampwa
#dhowmpowa
#iku_iku
-yakaa: jujaa
 

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