half dead

i walk like a zombie
in this stormy
weather, no hunger, no pain
nothing in this empty frame
it's just the same thing every day
and each night as i lay
motionless in pain
ok! i don't feel no pain but
that no-pain is a pain in itself so such
emptyness makes me feel pain
to feel something, it's my aim
but that aim feels light years away
from my grasp so i sway
to this wind of life
no will to strive
for anything, no will to do anything
despite being a human being
i walk like a zombie
but that's just a normal human me
fake assing every emotion
hanging on to some people long gone
searching for a home
trying to be strong
and feel something
nomatter how painful it may be
just to feel alive and see
the world in color
and not feel like a dead and walk in blurred
 vision, thah is my life
a blurred lahf-dead one
-yakaa: jujaan