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oh crap!!!

well shit! I've fallen for her
not in the past but now she makes my heart flutter
well shit! this makes things awkward
I'm like a dog that can't bark
why did my vision change? the way i see...
why man!!! because she is my freaking bestie
Naw man! i can't be feeling this
she is actually on my list...
lemme think clearly for a moment...

(ater six  months)

oH! shit!!! i have to somehow bend
my heart from not feeling this thing
but do i think i can change it?
Naw! I've always been a crazy shit
si i guess I'll just let it roll
and try not to make her my ultimate goal
easier said than done mate
now that i think abpout it... it musta been fate
that made me meet
this girl who seeks
light in impossible if times
this idiot who won't let me whine
in peace, this annoying lil piece
man i somehow have to stitch
my mouth shut and stay quiet
and tell myself massive lies
so be it! it's a decision
it's a mission
roger that brain
but zip it i'll never let her find
that she is one sweet wine
to this ex-alcoholic
a forbidden temptation
a love interest, a  source of fun
for my heart that has to be sacrifised
just for... well my own sake
because i've learnt from my past mistake
yup! not the first time here my pal
i just wanna crawl
into my own little hole
but i've gotta be bold
and pretend that everything's normal
just cuz i don't wanna ruin my friendship with beautiful mess of a girl
the one that i've fallen for
the bestie... whose fallen for somebody else....

#iku_iku(the past mistake here in the poem. :D :D. i let her know my feelings and BOOM we weren't talking for a year. but back to being besties again bitches!!!)
#pinch_of_hope (yup this one too. hehe. fell for her but didn't let her know and BOOM she vanished into thin air with nothing but insta account... that too which i found after years of her departure. sad luck and a mad heart. who knows, this shit may happen again for all i know and if it happens again... OH CRAP!!! HAHA)

-yakaa: jujaan

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