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I’ve killed them a millions of times And i’ve whined Too much just cause i killed them Things are not the same Times have changed Too late to mend Now cause i’m not a kid anymore Thousands of them killed Just to develop some skills. I got up when i wanted to sleep Stayed when i wanted to leave Left when i wanted to stay Painted when i wanted to sprey Sketched when i wanted to paint Borrowed when i wanted to lend And lend when i wanted to take Just for the sake Of someone else Just to help An elf Develop their skills And develop the power of will I always was a dwarf Controlling his barf A brute, an inferior Strong on the outside but on the interior??? It’s all messed up And i just have to stop Killing them My dreams... -yakaa: jujaan

Sukeko paat jhareko jhai Antim saas lie manchhe mareko jhai Dhalna thale ma pani Mera bachha haru lai maaf pau bhani Ti bachhaa haru jasle malai ghar banaeko thiye Tara aafnai bachha harule mero jyan liye Ti bachha haru jaslai ma manchhe bhanchhu Ti bachha haru jaslai ma sarbottam prani ganchhu Dhaalna thale mera daju bhai lai Prakriti haru sab khaye Afno swartha ko lagi Ajha auchhan mai kaha devi deuta bhaagi Dhowsta banaye prakriti Failaaye bikriti Ani ayo badhi pahiro Dubna thaale sochma gahiro Tara ajhai antim mauka dina chahanchhu Galti sudhaarne mauka chha tyo chahi manchhu Bharkhar naabalak chhan tini haru Tara chhaina malai marnu Tiniharu ko haat baata Ma rookh... -yakaa: jujaan

“just a cut It won’t hurt If just one goes off” He said but it’s time to stop Too many gone And too many have lost their home. Who you say? Those who lay Eggs and keep your insects at bay So you may Have guessed it Yea that obe too, the one who just bit You too ans left a red mark And they say again “oh! Hark”. You think i’m talking about humans here? I mean humans are the ones who destroyed their lair And as you give me a stare Down you wouldn’t want to go there The place where i’d been But a few years ago you’d have seen All those tall trees The one who swinged with the breeze But it’s all upturned now And yet you ask how? It’s your fault And you need to hault Cutting them down Cause the frown That those creatures give When you slip A saw between their home, That’d curse you and soon you’ll be left all alone With no scene of nature... -yakaa: jujaan

Aometimes i can’t express My excel- Ing emotions, i can’t speak My peak- Ing emotions I’m just left emotionless I try to express them Through words, though not the same Cause they are written And not smitten By expressions I’m just left expressionless Although i write in poetris And unseen stories They hold the most truth The hold the most brute Strength I’m just left breathless Every word i write Every vocal expression i despise And despite not showing any reaction If someone shows attraction Towards me I’m just left speechless Cause i know how damaged i am I’m insane but bam! If someone still cares for me I’ll see That they are cared for in return -yakaa: jujaan

dodhaarma chha kina ho aja? yaad airako chha sabko yo sajha halka matra bahakina pugeko thiye halka matra ramauna pugeko thiye tara feri tyehi puge sayad yestai po ho ki jindagi??? dherai khoje bhulna unlai yaad yeti diyo ki pugyo saat juni lai halka matra bhulna pugeko thiye halka matra jhulna pugeko thiye tara feri tyehi puge sayad yestai po ho ki jindagi??? sambandha ta tuti shakyo naata hamro futi shakyo halka matra hsna pugeko thiye halka matra sambandha gasna pugeko thiye tara feri tyehi puge sayad yahi ho maya??? manchhu gahiro chhaina tyo maya pahila jastai tara bikdaina jati chha tyeti maya sastai halka matra baliyo banna pugeko thiye halka matrai drid banna pugeko thiye tara feri tyehi puge sayad kasaiko pida dekhna sakdina hola.... #promise #pinch_of_hope -yakaa: jujaan

Ok! so here i go again Rambling about the same Old shits again Cause i’m on the verge of going insane Cause i feel like i’m being deleted From everybody’s mind, depleted From existance My battle stance With loneliness has improved But the root Of that loneliness hasn’t been deleted Yet, all those pleas that i’d pleaded Left unheard like a prayer unprayed With this enough said But those feelings won’t go away Those feelings of being erased From a dear’s mind #khyampwa #nununu #dhowmpwa #promise #iku_iku #tapakhwa #esperanza #motu #maate #lallu -yakaa: jujaan

She was the light of my life she showed me light when all I could see was darkness and gave me a hopes kiss and promised me that she’d never leave me alone but she left me alone maybe I had to atone for all the sins I did so I made myself as hard as a stone and I fell for a girl but got broken and it was a token of sadness for me then another one came just to put my sadness to shame and she made me feel again but the process was the same she made a promise of never leaving but she too must have been deceiving me and even herself she helped me heal and her own self now she is going away too and I’m sitting here like a mindless buffoon watching… letting her go damn I want to slow the time here but stopping her means stopping her happiness and cropping it so I’m gonna let her reach her happiness even if it means that I’d get the shadows kiss again #pinch of hope(the poem says it all. She healed the broken me an just as I was about to heal she left leaving me b...

You said you want them all So how can i let you fall? I will see to it That you will get Everything you desire Cause you inspire Me, you add the fuel to my fire Despite me being a liar And you say you want him back. I will see to it even though it may crack My heart into millions of pieces The case ain’t so different from mine one I still want her back, but they are gone But some parts pf us still want them Although we are not in relation but you still feel like home And i know that once you go to him You’ll never come back, the chances are slim That he’ll ever let you meet me But your name’s etched in the sands of dee For me Even though you’ll be gone, i’ll make sure that you can come back to see This idiotic face... #ted(well c wants both of us. N knowing him he just can’t stand me n i can’t stand him . but if he is what c wants i’ll make sure that those two get reunited even if it means that it’ll kill my happiness) #promise (i haven’t forgotten her n some par...

Tum toh gaye par yaad baaki hai Aajkal toh bas tumhari awaj hi kaafi hai Tumhari chehera aisi yaad aati hai Mere aakho ke saamne Jaise ki kohi khwaab ho Kohi khana jaise laajawab ho Tomhari bak bak karne ki aadat Tumhari wo ibadat Kaene ki tariko ki yaad Hai abhi bhi mujhe Kaise bhulao tumhe Jabki tumne mujhe wo dardnaak lamho Mein hasna sikaya Ab hasta hu mein chahe gum ho Ya khushi par tumne mujhe rulaya Duniya chodke jaane ki jarurat nahi thi Ab pawon kaise tumhe??? Chahe kahi bhi Jaakar dhudoon nahi paasakta Par tumhe is aaahik se kya waasta Tum toh gaye ho aaamaan ki taraf Aur mein yaha hu registaan mein baraf Ko dhoodta huwa #simu (my first attempt at a hindi poem) -yakaa: jujaan

We were just sitting down On the empty ground Just making small talks And then i looked at her, Her hair that curls Right around her ear And i was giving a blank stare And i didn’t even realise that i was doing it I was just looking at how beautifully She was talking to me When she said “let it be You aren’t even listning” How could i listen when i was looking at her glistening Face enveloped by the sun’s embrace A beautiful case And i thought it’s really gonna ache When she leaves but what the heck I’ma enjoy it till it lasts Even though it may be fast Coming or slow I’m just gonna go with the flow But i’m not gonna let her go Cause i wanna slow Time when i’m with her And i may come off as a bother But i’m guessing that she enjoys these idle moments as much as i do #batman -yakaa: jujaan

Dinko pachhisau ghantama Madhyaraatko maunatama Uthirahekochhu baula ma Kalam adhkai sirtko baulama Lekhirahekochhuneuta mantabya Thekaan chhaina gantabyako Tara feri tyehi ghumti herna manchha । Ho mero manle tyehi bhanchha Tara tyo kura sambhav chhaina Kinaki tyo ghumti yo duniya mai rahena। Unko mukh ko tyo ghumti Gaayab hunthiyo jaba uni runthi Sala ruwaerai gayo malai Unko antim bhanai Ajhaisamma yaad chha Yaad chha malai unko antim shabda haru Jaba chodi gayo stabda Tara unko gantabya nai mero saar bhayo Unko antim muskaan euta bhaar bhayo । Euta udharo chodera gayin mama Tara sakeko chhuina tyo udhaaro tirna Tyesaile chhyamamagdai chhu ra khojdai chhu ujyalo paatoma chhirna Tara mata khairo yoddha hun Adhyaro yoddha lai ujyalo dekhaune chhu Tara afu ujyaloma jadina Ra euta kasam khadai ma Bhanchhu ki unko udhaaro tirne chhu... #the_25th_hour #simu -yakaa jujaan

He is sad beyond measure yet he creates memory that he can treasure. he has a few friends he can call his own but despite that he feels all alone, some broken ships too hard to mend… some attacks too hard to fend- off and some messages too broken to send he is happy sad hence cause everything is going smoothly for him yet he thinks a lot in dim lights at night alone in his room talking to a broom as if that broom is a person in and on itself he is dying, he needs some help cause he has too many feelings bottled up inside bad thing is that he can’t even cry to let them out, those feelings, and let a touch of healing hand touch him and fix those broken emotions of his and he is desperately waiting for a moment of bliss a moment of peace… #promise #pinch_of_hope #chi_chu #iku_iku #khyampwa #dhowmpwa #PAD #batman #P_L #awari #nununu #tox -yakaa_jujaan

Well let’s be honest who among us hasn’t sat on a nest made up of thorns and sat on a raging bull’s horn and just like us she sat on one too just a different one the one where ones self respect is gone but that was once, now she is as strong as strong can be yet she lets me see her in tears she told me about her fears and being who I am I tried to make her smile, I lied some white lies just for them smiles but she…well they let me see their sea Of emotions and I hope that I can be there for them #batman (our beginning) #awari ( yup that was not the first time that happened. But hey!!! I cheered u up didn’t i? hope that we can be better friends, a kind of friends that we missed out being four years back. ) -yakaa_jujaan

Ok so one star got lost in the gust of the wind, so what? one heart got broken so what? Right? one leaf fell from the height where a thousand leaves lived one leaf that believed that everything’s gonna be alright one leaf that was fight- ing with all of its might just to hang on to its life, it fell down one more chair frown- ing cause it’s owner died so what? Right? who cared if one candle gets extinguished, too much to handle for me, not me me but me as in me who is closest to that candle the one who closely guards that lantern it hurts to be that me the pain only she can see cause that lantern’s name you see is etched in the sands of dee and even the river of time can’t remove that name, like a lost dime that forever stays in a child’s heart and tears it apart until the child dies and an adult is born; filled with lies that other adult placed on her one empty chair on the kitchen isn’t worth about bitching or is it??? -yakaa jujaan

Saayad eklo huda sumyataa pyaro lagthiyo hola ra eklopanle maunata magthiyo tara jaba dekhi saath paye unko ujyalo kam lagna thalyo junko ho ajhai kura garchhu junsanga sunauchhu junlai uni danga bhayeko kahani ra uni udas bhayeko kuraharu hamro jivanko tukraharu tara uni ahile maun chin laaamo lagna thalyo din pani ra ajhai laamo chha raat mero sano apamaanjanak baat le dukhayo unko chitta unko chitra pani bolna chodyo ra dukhyo mero man jaba unko hasho nai thiyo mero dhan maile unko man dukhaye ra unko maunatama aafno pida paaye yadi mero chittanai yeti dukhyo bhane unko chitta kati dukhyo hola bhanne jaba chaal paye dherai chot khaye ra kasam khaye ki uno man dukhaune chhuina kahilei matra euta mauka paaye bhane feri tyo galti dohoryaune chhuina unko maunata lyaune chhuina #batman (well this event was a around a week or two ago. I misbehaved and she was hurt. We almost stopped talking. It was my fault and I swore on my  grandpa’s grave that I won’t repe...

I was alone, oh! So alone everything I cared about was gone like a person who’d lost his home facing the huge storm, all alone but then she came and showed me light she gave me a reason to fight for what’s right with all my might and hold tight and widen my sight to see the faintest ray of hope she taught me to walk on the tiniest of rope taught me not to mope around and not to loathe life but to see the best of it, to clean my own shit and rebuild myself bit by bit and how to take a hit so I’m trying to do the same that she did to me. lame? it might seem so but I amnot doing this for fame but just to bring the smile when somebody remembers my name she has made me see that he who only sees darkness can be someone’s light and I’m continuing her legacy… #iku_iku (well she was the one who tried to pull me into the light at first but some shits happened and she failed but she tried again after a year but by then I was already far too gone to bring back  yet sh...

I see a girl not so far hiding behind bars smiling at me, hiding her tears Inviting me towards her, “have no fears and come to me” she says “I’ll shorten your days” she adds to it “and I’ll show you bliss” and I see her holding her hand out telling me all about the positivity she sees in future “you are not a loser” she keeps on saying these optimistic things, making me wonder about mystic beings like her, are there other beings like her? So far not and I wanna go towards that girl hurling this load I have for I want to see the world that she wants to make my goal and I have screwed up too many times so as much as I whine about being sad this is the last chance I have to reach her, to see the place that my head always thinks about hell! I wanna shout out loud that I am not okay but hey I have her in my sights don’t i? so I’ma keep moving and fight till I reach the world that she speaks of… #batman (ok I do admit that I am writing about her after a long...

I’ve made a deal with the devil who has stooped down to my level just to make a deal just to seal a pact with me a pact to make a happy life for those I love to never make time stop to those I care about this is my first shout to the world about this thing and soon I’ll cease to be a living being but NO! I won’t die so easily I still have to see many happy faces and show them happy places but I am doing everything to please the devil king that is by taking my own life that is by giving him a bribe of slow and painful death and yes I have sealed my fate but I know that he’ll hold up his end of bargin he will make time stop that is by making me walk on thumb-pin one by one and as seconds escapes gone by gone from my life he is making me do things that’ll make others strive for that small ounce of happiness and that those others will escape from that embrace that they don’t want and soon all their pain will be gone just like me me being a selfish guy, I...

i always have this voice that says noice you screwed up again you proved that you are insane and sometimes i agree with her cause that voice showed me color when all i could see was in greyscale when all i could do was fail and dig up my own grave when i stepped on my own tail yet it's not like i want that voice but i have it; not a choice for that voice is my heart talking to me, holding me up when i"m falling apart and i know that you have one too not just one but two voice; one being your heart and other mind one cruel and other kind but if you don't have that don't worry you'll find one soon, just don't whine about it cause it WILL tear you up like shit but once you grow used to them your life will never be the same for you'll never be ALONE AGAIN... #roy_de_scuro #criss_walker #obscure_halo (voila!!! i don't just have two voice o=in my head but three) -yakaa: jujaa

i am okey but i am just joking time is stopping my mind is hopping bit i fee it's normal I'd rather stay messy than formal they say it's not okay but it's my stronghold and i don't find them okay when they say Okey-dokey i do hate cookie i love looking at the same old things but they don't even like my existence and i know that it's just fine cause the way i see things is mine own way of normality and i won't force anyone to see things my way; just let it be cause everyone has their own version of normality #roy -yakaa: jujaa